bits of randomness

i am tired.
scratch that.
is there a bigger better word than exhausted?
when the pregnancy book said i would experience extreme fatigue in the 3rd trimester i just though "ok. so i'm going to revisit the stage where i want to sleep all the time."
wrong.
it's like extreme muscle exhaustion.
my arms and legs and well, everything! burn and ache like i just had the worst most vigorous workout at the gym with no fuel in my system and then went home and cleaned the entire house. everything feels like a dead weight when i try and move. mom said something about maybe trying and eating a bit of red meat b/c we mostly eat chicken around here -just personal preference when i'm only cooking for myself -it's easier than say grilling a steak. yesterday i made spaghetti-the protein enriched kind- and meatballs. i did notice quite the boost.so i guess i will add to my grocery list some kind of little fillet thing that i may be able to broil in the oven.

i finished The Wizard Heir. (those books by cinda williams i'm sure you've read about on shades blog. they are so good there's no way she would have failed to mention them!) I have the 3rd book 'Dragon Heir' on hold at the library. it was a 10 day wait. i sure hope whoever has it is a fast reader!!! i wonder what i can scan in the meantime.i'll have to drag something down off the shelf .

i've printed the packing list for the hospital when i go in to delivery. it's coming up so close now.i imagine i'll just throw stuff aside bit by bit til i'm ready to pack it all up.last time i really hated all of the 'after delivery' pads and undies the hospital gave me. though i had taken my own i didn't feel like dragging them out so i suffered in those giant diapers -the nurse actually wanted me to wear 2 stuck down side by side! talk about ew! and the ugly mesh panties. i never felt like they stayed on even though they were huge!!

we played outside with all the neighbors yesterday. i called crazy neighbor to come and help blow bubbles. some days she can be quite pleasant. it's her little boy that's getting my nerves at the moment. he's so prissy and bratty. his only childishness shows. it radiate out from him like some kind of repellent. he just exudes bulliness. anyway we were all cleaning up his mother said he needed to help and he said ' no thanks. i didn't drag all this out.'
she just let it go. didn't say anything to him like 'well you participated so you need to help." or 'your the oldest and need to set the good example by helping anyway so pick up'. he was twice the age of the oldest small kid out there. he'll be 10 this summer!
another time he was playing hide and seek with one of the girls and when she went to count he just went in his house.
and his tone of voice when he would talk to them. don't get me started on that! he talked down his nose to all of them! though he did stop and draw one of the girls a bunny with the sidewalk chalk.
oh, and he kept telling his mom 'i need some privacy!" and she would say."well go inside' and he would say "i want to play outside!"(which he never does!) and she told him "well if your going to be outside then you have to expect to encounter other children. that's just the way it is my little only child"
he doesn't play well with other kids. at all. he drags out all of his stuffed animals and hoards them all. not sharing when others want to play but having plenty to pass around. he just teases them with it. i've told him before he has to share or take them in.
but at some point it's the responsibility of the parent to teach their kid how to play well with others. to share and be nice and treat others like you would like to be treated.it becomes bad parenting when it is so obvious that your kid spends so much time alone that at this much of an older age he just can't cope with being around other kids.
it's her fault he's that way.
she's never made him share. she still chooses not to drive so she doesn't take him to school functions or games or public parks so he can be around kids his own age.they don't go to church.no socialization there. you have to be proactive in your kids life up to a certain part. you have to teach them to play well and share and how to make good friends. it's very annoying that she blames his attitude on everything but herself.
she was complaining the other day that he was such a good not picky eater when he was a toddler and then one day he just started wanting to play instead of eat and then when he went back to eating he wouldn't have any thing to do with anything healthy and it just gets worse. i told her at that point it's your responsibility to make your kid eat what they need to eat. even if it's just a matter of ' take 3 bites of each and then you can be done' ,but don't let them down from the table before.you're still holding authority at that point. she's lost all hold on him as his mother. it's sad. she didn't like hearing this and said that her dr told her that so long as he was drinking milk and juice he was fine. at some point that all just becomes empty calories. how can a child sustain on milk and juice and gold fish crackers? she admits she kept crackers and cheerios available to him at all times. we still don't really do a snack time unless it's obvious he's starving! and then most of the time it ruins his dinner and he doesn't eat good. that was the mistake she made, allowing him to have only what he wanted when he wanted it.to this day she still lets him eat like that. it's poor parenting. if you start that in one area of their life they're going to try to take over and get their way in other areas.

i guess i should be glad she lives next door to me. atleast i have learned that what NOT to do with my kid.

what else??????

i guess that's really all for now. it's almost lunch time so i best start thinking about what we're having.