Tuesday, April 29, 2008

a funny story

my niece Gomer is 3 and 1/2. she is very perceptive.
you don't get anything past her.
i guess her mother(middle sis) decided it was best to teach her about mother's that breastfeed. seeing as how i was the latest person in her life performing the task.

the first time she saw me do it was at christmas at my meme's house.
middle sis was in the back room with me, helping me master the art(teege was a little over 2 months old) and gomer comes to hunt us down.

she asked me "what's baby timothy doing?"
"he's eating" i explain. not wanting to say much more b/c i wasn't sure that i should be the one to tell her all about it.
middle sis pulls gomer up on her lap and says "remember how i told you mommys make milk in their boobs for their babies? well baby timothy is getting his milk. i fed you that way when you were a baby and you'll be able to feed your babies like that when you are grown if you want."

she stares at me for a second or two and then she says, mater of factly, "does he like that milk from your boob?"
it was hard to answer without laughting, she was serious afterall. "he sure does" was all i managed to giggle out.

at middle siss's b-day party this past sunday i sit on the couch to nurse teege. gomer and i had been playing so she was following me around and came in to the living room. since she knew all about what was going on i wasn't the least bit worried about questions.
gomer goes and sits on the fireplace, i took the opportinity to latch teege on while her back was turned. she get's all settled on the hearth and stares across the room at me intently.
"is baby tj getting his milk?" she asks me.
"he is." i state.
"is he sucking on your boob??"

oh my goodness!!
it was the funniest thing! and it's so hard not to laugh b/c she is so serious when she says these things.
"he does." i reply.
"well did you drink the milk so he could get some too?"
i didn't know what else to say. would she really understand that i work basically the same way as a cow does right now??
she didn't ask anything else after that.
she sure can be funny without meaning to. i'm just glad she knew enough about it that it wasn't 101questions. i wouldn't have known which ones her mother wanted me to answer.

kids do say the darndest things.

the sock

the things kids do in the car!
i'm glad i was in the back seat or i would have missed this.
teege pulled his sock of and stuck it in his mouth!
we were driving to my sisters for her birthday party - me and aunt sissie were in the back seat with the baby and mom and dad were driving.
he just sat there with his sock in his mouth while he played with other stuff! turning his head this way and that all the while the sock was dangling from his mouth!
it was hilarious!
we laughed and laughed!

Mr. Big Stuff

here are some pictures of teege. he'll be 6 months on friday.
he thinks he's some hot stuff!

i took him to brownwood this weekend to see my friend skye who has an 8 month old.
everytime we'd put the boys on the floor together teege would cry! it was funny in a pitiful sort of way. he must be a very sensitive baby. skye's boy would get so excited and he'd wave his arms and bounce and scream~ and teege would burst in to tears! i have got to get him around bigger babies more often. he likes big kids and little babies, but doesn't know what to think of in between.

Saturday, April 26, 2008


so i conducted a little internet search last night to gather a bit of knowledge for "what is expected of an officers wife".
i used google for this of course.
i browsed web sights, chat boards, articles. mostly i discovered that there is a "wives club" to participate in.(i don't think that is strictly officers wives though. and i'm pretty sure my husbands unit doesn't have one of those. i've never heard mention of it at least.)
oh, and i think what TJ reall meant about me showing my face is that "stay at home mothers are expected to participate in charity funcitons and fundraisers more than the military wife that has a career outside the home." uummmm excuse me. taking care of my 6 month old is a full job! i don't care that i am home all day.though i did read that the expectations of a military wife has gone down considerably since the "working woman" was invented. i guess we will see. i don't mind attending any social functions that TJ is a part of. however i will not sacrifice time i could spend teaching things to my child in order to go to high tea at the commanding officers house on a daily basis.(no offence ma'am_
anyway, the point of this tid bit:
on page 3 of my quest for information there it is.
like the 3 link from the top - MY BLOGG-!! (DUM DA DUM DUM!!!)
i panicked!!
i called my big sister jen immediately! (it was like 11 o'clock almost! sorry about that sis)
"my blogg is on the internet!! what do i do??!!!!"
i always knew that anyone could read my blogg, i did not know(or put it together atleast) that it would come up in someones random search!
i felt sick to think that anyone could type in "what is expected of a military officers wife" and read my blogg post from yesterday in full. i was terrified!
i shouldn't have been, b/c those were women that i do not know personally. me and sis decided that it was ok to leave my blogg as is, just to keep in mind that that is indeed how ppl find out if you're talking about them, so on and so forth.
i guess i could type in anything on google that i have blogged about in the past and pull my blogg up at some point. but it is unnerving to think that it truely is out there for the whole world to see.

i am a mean mother!
i went in to check on teege before i went to bed at like ll 30.(TJ is gone - again.)
teege was laying in his crib on his tummy. so cute. with his arms tucked up under his chin, up on his knees with his butt stuck up in the air.
i couldn't resist.
i had to have a picture of that!
so i sneak back in to his room - without turning on the lights. praying i will get a good shot the first time.
i didn't.
taking pictures in the dark is hard! thank GOD for digital immage!
so i snapped another one. this one was good but i thought i could do better! he stirred in the middle b/c the stupid cat had followed me in to his room and started yaowlling at the top of her lungs. damnit! i had to get another one.
this one was better, but his head was turned away from me.i wanted the funny pose the most, but i wanted his face in it too!
the cat cries out again!!! teege's head turns back towards me!



i woke him up!
and he was mad!!
i got a good couple of pictures though.
i used to sleep like this when i was a kid. my big sis always teased me about it.
i got some cute pictures and i will post them soon. plus it gave me an excuse to get him out of his bed and rock him. sometimes i miss him in the middle of the night and wish he'd wake up so i could snuggle him.. it's a worse kind of longing when TJ is out of town. holding a baby brings forth some serious comfort with it.....

i have no plans today. it's saturday.
we were up at 7 30. teege went back down for a nap at 9.
i guess i will vacuum.
that's really all i've got.
oh i could clean the bathrooms too i suppose.

there must be a few garage sales nearby today. i have the windows open and there is quite a bit of traffic on our street for it to be 9 30 am on a saturday.

my neighbor calls me last night and says "i'm freaking out now!!! there's a tornado warning!"
it wasn't even raining at my house yet, there was no thunder or wind.
i had her come over anyway. her hubby was gone too. and they don't have a safe place to go in during bad weather. all their rooms are on outside walls.
the tornado was only in part of our county, moving straight down the map .our county is HUGE! it was at the NE end - we are more at the SW end. so no worries there.
though i do get quite nervous about bad weather when it is just me at home. now it is me and baby. i kept thinking "what am i going to grab if i have to get in the closet!? diapers of course, some bottles of water. i guess i could get some formula together just in case.... the baby, can't forget the baby. what about the dogs? i'd just sit in the floor and call them i suppose. they would find us."
so i had my friend that stopped by on her way home from work go home to her kids, she was going to opposite direction of the storm. and my neighbor and her kid came over.
i called TJ a bit later(apologizing for interupting) to let him know they were about go get pounded.(the storm was heading their way though it died out some before it got there)
he very excitedly says "NO DON'T BE SORRY! i am so glad you are talking to me!"
he get's weather alerts on his phone. i forgot this. he already knew. (wonder why he didn't call. they were done for the day and he was at dinner afterall) he had gotten 6 weather alerts in the past 30 minutes for our county. i gave him the scoop and told him i thought we were going to be fine, but we were prepaired, just in case.
when a storm finally did it it wasn't part of the tornado producing one. it was just your typical run of the mill thunderstorm with pea sized hail and thunder. enough lightning to make the lights flicker.
no big deal.
my daddy did call to check on me before they went to bed though. that made me feel safer. for some reason.
not like my daddy could fight of a big ol' tornado.....but you know, when you are a daughter, a father can do anything. they are invincable!

i guess i will try and go get something done. even if it's as simple as sipping another cup of coffe.
have a happy saturday.

Friday, April 25, 2008

oh boy! drama!

you know what i like about having a blogg? that it is a blogg about my life and ppl know that if they read it whatever i say is ok to say b/c it's my blogg about how i feel about whatever! and the ppl that post on my blogg are my friends enough to GENTLY give their opinion or loyally agree with me on the subject at hand. i can trust my blogg b/c the ppl that read it are ppl that i know. i don't use my blogg as a diary. i use it to broadcast my life generally, all drama between me and ppl i am close to set aside.

you know what i hate about message boards? that ppl in them seem to feel the need to voice their opinion and make sure you read them loud and clear.
i am posting the following b/c it was said by someone that i don't generally know or keep close contact with. she is an aquantance from a message board i am apart of. end of story.

i posted this on my military wife websight today and kind of got griped at. i didn't think i was being griped at at first. now i have changed my mind and since have asked an administrator to delet my post b/c it was a target for potential problems, though i wasn't trying to start anything.

i must know what to expect!

i should be in bed but this is heavy on my mind right now:DH is going to OCS this summer. i knew that this would bring great changes in our life. ie, the moving so often. DH working alot more hours, more deployments. more responsability for him. what never crossed my mind was what was expected of me.i didn't know anything more would be expected of me.(i should be smacked for not thinking of this!)granted my husband is in the national guard and most of the time he goes to work and comes home(he's e6 right now) there are no big social functions. there's NGAT. that's the only one i've ever heard of. he's always had drill during NGAT. we've never gone.one of his buddies asked him today "so is your wife ready to be an officer's wife?"i was on the defense immediately."what's that supposed to mean?"he gave me this look like "are you kidding me?"i had to ask him again "am i supposed to be out there like doing stuff?" ( one of the SGt. MAJ's wife was rallied at all of the homecomings when they came off their last deployment. i mean ALL OF THEM! (they came back in groups over 2 months time b/c some groups went ahead of others - it was for KFOR 7)DH is just looking at me like i should know all this magically!, and then i understood. he's been asking me alot recently about getting involved with FRG. ok, no problem. i like to reach out to folks that are in the same boat as me.then he hits me with "there will be more social functions to attend...." and he prettled on about a few things some of the other officers' wives he knew had done.(could this be why a bunch of women i didn't know threw me a baby shower last october???)he made it sound like i suddenly was a vital accessory to his career. not that i wasn't always, now i would just be seen more often.i don't mind being seen. i think i'm quite cute! i could stand to loose more weight since the baby was born but i'm working on it. i'm socailly sophisticated enough i think.i'm kind of freaking out about it. did you ever watch that show "army wives" that came on WE last year? i feel like Roxy. the new girl to the army life style. the one who didn't know anything about anything and was always getting her husband in trouble. DH doesn't talk to me about what he does. (not that he could anyway) i just learned how to tell military time and we've been together for 7 years! when i finally complained that i sitll hadn't gotten it down pat, not even after setting the time on my cell to it so i could figure it out he says "just subtract 2 when it's double digits. like 1300 is 1 oclock, you just take 2 away." so on and so forth. well stupid! why didn't you say that sooner? i just want to know so that he knows that i know him well. who he is and what he does. i just don't want other ppl to think i'm dumb b/c i don't know all the lingo. like when folks ask what his MOS is. the first time some one asked me i responded with "what's that?""oh it's what they do for a living." well gee, i didn't see that coming.ok, so he's personel. he wants to branch engineer when he graduates ocs. but isn't there a specific way to rattle off once's MOS other than point blank like that? isn't it some letter and numbers thrown together so no one would even know what the hell you were saying if you spat it out?educate me so i can be a good army wife!! i feel like a dummy! i just want DH to be successful and i don't want to be the dummy blonde who knows squat about him as a military man and has been married to him forever!i am begging you! even if i'm blowing this totally out of proportion i'd like to know that too! of course nothing is ever as big of a deal as i think it will be, but i like to be prepaired......ok, i'll quit now. fire away!

i hope this didn't sound snotty!i don't want to be snotty.

the first reply to my post:

No it did not. I'm no longer a military singificant other. My ex was Army reserves and when we were together I was not valued enough as a significant other that he never had me involved in his military stuff. So I have no advice.

the second reply:

first of all....unless he's making General...your importance is to him....not to his unit. You are there to support him...not become a social liason. Sorry, but I do find this somewhat condensending to others. I am a "Chief"s wife...highest "enlisted" rank....but I did not earn the rank ..."he did" I support him and do whatever is asked of me. I do not think of myself as better than anyone else. Maybe what I am reading into this is a lack of maturity...which I have read more than often lately. If I am offending anyone....then think about it and see if applies to you......I will not apologize for speaking my mind....this is not a social club and the "Officer's Wife" mentality as opposed to the other wive's in my opinion is "high school antics"

i replied to both replies saying:
barbara -i agree with what you are saying and i appreciate you for saying it. my importance should be to him, not to what "others" think i should be doing.i have seen some movies where some wives "throw their husbands rank" around like it's their own.(i'm not wanting to offend anyone either) but that is not my nature. i believe that my husband should get credit for being a good soldier and leader, not b/c his wife looks good on his arm and is involved in everything he does. i think we are all equal and all serve the same purpose as a military wife regardless of what our significant other's job is.i have always felt this way:"this is not a social club and the "Officer's Wife" mentality as opposed to the other wive's in my opinion is "high school antics"but have never had to address it b/c we don't live on base and frankly i barley know the ppl he works with, let alone their families.i just want to be supportive as best i can. that's all. i wasn't sure there were specifics or not that i needed to know of, b/c God knows DH would forget to tell me.i guess the important thing is that i do what he asks of me - like i always have - and nothing less of that. ellabell -i am sorry that you were never valued like you should have been. it is a big job what we go thru being together with someone in the service. i appreciate you anyway. you have load to offer to us!thanks for posting even if you had no advice, it means that you care what is going on with me regardless.
"this is not a social club and the "Officer's Wife" mentality as opposed to the other wive's in my opinion is "high school antics"but have never had to address it b/c we don't live on base and frankly i barley know the ppl he works with, let alone their families.Living on or off base has nothing to do with it. We have never lived on base....you seem to have missed the point

well barb then made reference to what i said about not living on base and not having had to deal with the drama between NCO and Officers wives by saying that apparriently i missed her point b/c it has nothing to do with living on base. she's never lived on base. i replied to her 2nd comment with this:

i'm not sure.i thought i understood what you meant. you were saying we are all equal and should treat eachother as such.i wasn't trying to classify myself as "more important". i only know 2 other military wives other than the time i spend here.no one has set an example for me to follow. i just felt a little out of the loop and was looking for a little guidance. i guess this is a sign that i can believe that things will only change as much as i let them. i can still be the stay at home mom i want to be and raise my son and not worry about the rest. he made it sound like we were going to be consumed with functions to attend. i don't want to misunderstand. i like to be prepaired! i wasn't trying to stick out like a sore thumb and act high and mighty.

she seemed to think that she would "not offend me" by saying "i don't want to offend anyone...."
that's the same thing as saying "now don't take this the wrong way but..."(fill in the blank)
if you have to say something before you say something else, chances are you are trying to be nice by dropping a fair warning that you are fixing to say something ugly. i didn't think at first that she was trying to single me out,but at the same time it sound like she was lumping me in with a certain group of women(you don't know me bitch! is all i want to scream at her!)

she also said "maybe what i am reading in this is lack of maturity" i'm glad she's a chiefs wife! congratulations.! all's i was asking was for someone to please tell me what is truely expected of me! do i still get to be the stay at home mom i want to be or is it all of a sudden my obligation to take part in "every fund raiser and bake sale and social function" on top of calling other NOC famailies during deployments and asking if they need any help with anything. is it truely a social whirlwind or can you only socialize only as much as you want??
is it really just the general's wife that is really obligated to "show her face" or is it important for all the wives to show their faces? we don't go to any social functions at present. i was just wondering what was going to change so drastically that TJ seemed to think i was ill prepaired!
TJ is no help. he doesn't talk to me about work. so i guess so long as i continue to do what he asks me to then i have no worries.

i've been thinking off and on about not participating in the message boards anymore anyway. the ladies aren't catty on a reg basis. but they post in groups. you know, sticking to ppl they know and leaving the newbies in the dust.

i am irritated that i got this respones. i wans't out to bragg that "i am an officers wife now! who the hell are you?" that is not me in any form. i have seen 1 woman on 1 occasion pull her husbands rank and act all high and mighty and it made me sick. she didn't work for that slot, he did. but some women do it.

i guess i will not say any more on this subject. it's frustrating more and more.

i hope a moderator deletes my post soon. i don't want to be fussed at anymore,

Monday, April 21, 2008

bad day

i have a fever.
i am all benadryled up b/c of allergies
which means i have had next to no good sleep.
i have been up since 4 am with a fussy baby.
we slept in the chair together though from 6 to 8 so that was nice. when teege woke up he was laying in the crook of may arm on his side and he was starring at me and going "dadadada." and then he's stop and smile when i opened my eyes. if i closed them again he's start all over, "dadadada" (this is a new word by the way. he just started it. at first he would only goo and gaa. then he started with the "mamamamamama". and now we have the dadadadad. i am proud)

i had a whole post written that was full of events from the weekend. but blogger is being STUPID this morning and acting all slow and retarded so i got mad and deleted the whole thing b/c it came out all wrong and then wouldn't publish. the page just couldn't seem to load!!


i am just irritated!
it has become so apparrent to me that i am the only one around here taking care of anyone! it has become such a reality that it is almost blinding! (i know, welcome to motherhood right?)
i have to ask TJ if i want him to do something for me. i even seem to have to ask him before i run off to take a bath if the baby is awake b/c he has a lot going on and the evening seems to be his time to unwind.(i'd like to know where my unwinding time is. don't i get any?)

i went to my mom's this weekend. that was supposed to be restful. i always come home from mom's feeling all refreshed and taken care of. that didn't happen this time.
teege cried all day saturday. he was all out of sorts. waking at 4 am, not wanting to nap, not wanting to stay asleep at bed time, freaking out if i left the room,etc.
mom had a sprained ankle so i tried to do things for her and let her rest her foot. but she kept getting up and walking on it anyway. which just seemed to make me feel even worse!! her foot looked so bad and here she was trying to take care of me anyway b/c it was aparrent that i was falling apart at the seams. she insisted her foot felt better when she was up on it anyway. i just wanted her to sit and hold the baby and shout orders at me. she let me do some things for her and i let her feed and play with the baby some for me. she even came in at 5 45 sunday morning when teege was crying and offer to give him a bottle. i got up anyway b/c my boobs were too full to go any longer and nursed him, and then i was determind that he was going back to sleep so i took him back to bed with me. and we did go back to sleep, surprisingly.

it was a nice weekend.
though it would have been easier if we had stayed home.(which is kind of backwards for us actually)
TJ was supposed to go out of town again thursday, now he's just decided he's driving back and forth. i am little disappointed. i was kind of looking forward to another break. sometimes things are easier when he's not here to need me too. but i am glad to have him just the same.

aunt sissie(my new name for auntie shades as of late. not sure where it came from but it stuck)
helped me get chewy(my golden retriever) all groomed up nice. we snipped and trimmed and bathed and clipped til he was all fresh and pretty. i had gotten so busy with the baby that it took chewy running across the kitchen floor and his hind legs going right out from under him before i noticed just how bad his feet were.
his hips are bad anyway, and he's 10 yrs old now,so him not being steady on is feet b/c of long nails and too much fur between the toes is not a good thing. i also went out and bought him a supplement to help his hips feel better. hopefully it will keep the arthritis at bay for a long time.
aunt sissie did most of the work but he looks so spiffy and handsome. i don't have a before and after picutre to compare, otherwise i'd put them up.

thanks aunt sissie for all your help! we appreciate it a ton!

today will not be a terrible day. it just won't be perfect.
i think i will make bread today.
it is a 4 hour process! but it is mindless work and makes the house smell nice.
fresh bread will be nice for dinner.....and i know that this will be something that TJ will notice and i will get much praise for doing. he loves homemade bread.

Thursday, April 17, 2008


a fellow blogger friend of mine(vegas princess) has asked me to post video of teege eating.
i tried.
i can't do it!
i have some great videos of teege eating and playing and having a big 'ol time and i let one load the other day - FOR 2 HOURS!!- and gave up.
i tried several other videos and no matter how long i waited it just never loaded.
i'm sorry!
i will try and email them.
if i can even figure that one out.

my son

Timothy James.

isn't it a strong name? a sound, solid, name.

my baby is running a fever today.

not a bad one, just the slight cranky fever they get when they are teething. i dosed him up with baby tylenol and put him to bed. he slept for 2 hours, which is a first.

we went to walmart when he was feeling better b/c i wanted to buy more baby tylenol to have on hand "just in case" we needed it tonight. though he seems to be fever free and comfortable.

he is sleeping again.

when he sleeps i like to hold him(though i try not to make a habit of rocking, it is something i do from time to time) and press my face close to his and feel his tiny rhythmic breath on my face. sometimes his nose whistles really high and quiet. sometimes he snorts when he breaths in.

i can not take enough pictures or film enough video. i have considered putting the camcorder somewhere where it can be on all the time so i would never miss a thing.
so often he will do something and i will worry to myslef "what if i forget this moment?" "what if when he is grown he will hate me and all's i will have left are pictures and videos of those moments in his life when all's he wanted was me?

when i pick him up out of this crib after naps and in the morning i put him up to my shoulder. he wrapps his arms around my neck and tucks his body in and squeezes as tight as he can. it's the best little boy hug i have ever had - b/c most older little boys don't give hugs - and i don't even think he knows he is doing it. i think he is stretching - but i can pretend that he is hugging me b/c he is glad to see me.

TJ has started touching my face. when i poke my head over the rail of his crib or bend down to scrunch noses with him(he does this quite well) he reaches up with both hands and grabs the sides of my face. sometimes he puts his fingers in my mouth or grabs my nose.

i love the way he talks to me when he catches sight of me across the room. "GOO! agoo! bbbvvvvv" he presses those lips together and blows and makes that vrooming sound like he's pretending he's driving a car!

he can turn over without even hardly thinking about it.

my baby is moving about now.

he is growing teeth.

he is eating from a spoon.

I am teaching him how to sip from a cup.(he does better with a big grownup cup than a sippy cup)

some of his onesies don't button between the legs b/c his torso is too long for his average age size.

my baby is growing.
i want him to stop.
but what about the days when he can run and play and wreastle? of course i want to have those times too......

but i am not ready for this stage to end.

that stage where he doesn't mind kisses and snuggles.

or the stage where he looks at me and immediately it dawns on him "that is the lady i see everyday" and you can see the light shed on his face that mine is a face he knows and trusts.

my son is my heart. i could burst at the seams each time i so much as think about him,let alone spend time with him. and he will never know how much i love him.

it is true what they say : you never know what your parents went thru with you until you become a parent yourself. (i mean that literally. what they went thru when you were a baby and when you were a rebealous brat! and they love you anyway)

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

the sound of a true love

so i was up piddling around late last night online. when i finally took myself back to bed sometime after 11 i had barely set foot thru the doorway of our bedroom when i hear this.

My heart melted.

there is a pause in the thumping as i gently click the door closed so as to not wake sleeping hubby and as i take a step towards my side of the bed i hear it again.

it is Chewy. my oh so loyal, follow me all over the house, never let me out of his sight golden retriever.(no kidding! he even follows me to the bathroom!!)usually my trips around the house in the middle of the night involve him following me around. scoping out whatever it is that might harm me in some way, or maybe he just is all knowing of my need for some kind of constant company. i guess last night he didn't seem to think that i needed him and he stayed sprawled out across our bedroom floor.(a little out of the ordinary for him.)

nonetheless i rounded the foot of the bed and dropped to my knees where i showered Chew with lots of soft pats and whispers of what a good boy he is.

there is something about the sound of that forever thumping tale that says " i love you. no matter what you say to me or what you think about yourself, i love you!"

and i find comfort in that.
man's bestfriend indeed. they are the one creature that could care less about how imperfect we are.

havne't had one of these in a while either!

i havne't had one of THESE in a while - a year, 2 months and 14 days actually - i'm not sure i miss it.
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And that's a promise I will keep.
Always. . .

Best,Wendi Aarons
Austin , TX

Monday, April 14, 2008

haven't had one of these in a while.

it is 11 pm!
this is going to bite me in the butt tomorrow! here i am staying up late and i had a fussy baby all day and we have lots of errands to run tomorrow. the post office, the grocery store, a few exchanges to walmart - maybe i'll sacraficie the fresh goodness of HEB and buy walmart groceries -it won't be the end of the world. we have to be up early b/c if i wait til lunch to start the errands then i will end up standing in line at the post office for 45 minutes like the last 2 times i went in the afternoon. teege slept those times. he's old enough to throw a fit now if he gets tired of his car seat so we are venturing out by 9 at the latest!

teege was good this morning. i went and got him out of his bed at 10 o'clock b/c he had been asleep for 14 hours! they all say you should never wake a sleeping baby. well let me tell you this: i will never let him sleep that late again! he didn't take 1 nap today! not 1!
well, he dozed off in his swing b/c i had had enough of letting him cry it out off and on in his crib all day.
he took off crying again when i fed him and tried to put him in his crib this afternoon, apon which TJ came in from the computer room and took him from me - every crying screaming bit of him! i went to cook dinner and i SWEAR that kid was asleep in less than 5 minutes!
you know why he was asleep so fast? b/c he was being rocked!
TJ rocked him on sunday for his nap and so today he wanted me to do the same.
hell no! i have conditioned my child to adapt to my schedule not me to his. i dont want him to dictate me! he didn't NEED anything, he WANTED to be rocked, and i held him and snuggled him and loved him and rocked him for A FEW MINUTES! and each time he started in on his earth shattering fit throwing i'd go in and hold and cuddle til he calmed down, once that need is met i put him back down. i gave up after an hour.
there is nothing wrong with him wanting to be rocked and cuddled til he falls asleep. there is everything wrong with us giving it to him often enough that he decides he won't fall asleep any other way. TJ likes to rock him on the weekends b/c he likes to take naps with him. and then it takes me 2 days to straighten him out! and then it starts all over again each weekend. but i have to let him build the memories. he is going to be gone for a while this summer.....
he knows how to fall asleep on his own - sometimes i don't understand why he can't do it.

i finally decided his teeth might be bothering him and gave him some tylenol. i can't feel them or see them yet but that has to be it. sometimes i forget he is at that age when they start teething. this made me feel like a bad mom when i remembered hey, maybe it's his teeth. it was his teeth all last week afterall.....
he eats the hell out of those frozen teething rings and cries when they thaw out. he chomps on it and his mouth and hands turn all red...... so it must feel good.

i guess i better go back to bed.
there's no sense in causing more trouble for myself tomorrow by being tired.

a day in the yard

something else

i forgot to tell you about is i finally tried my hand at making my own baby food. i made apples suace, peas, and green beans. AND baby tj loves avocado! you just scoop it right out of the skin and mash it. mix it with a little water to thin and smooth out the texture and give it to 'em.

they all turned out really good.
he loves the applesuace. we tried the peas last night for the first time. he ate them but he looked a little repulsed. he'd take a bit and pull the corners of his mouth down and then he'd shudder!
it was so cute, but he kept taking bites so maybe he didn't mind the flavor. i hear peas have a funny texture when mashed.
i haven't tried the green beans yet. i went with peas first b/c i hear most babies don't like them. i figured everybody likes greenbeans so i'm saving them after he accepts the peas.

a few "oopses" i keep forgetting to blog about.

well it has been a while since i blogged about anything.
this morning i managed to stumble to the kitchen to pour my coffee, my eyes are still blurry from sleep. i keep having to rub at them so i can see! but i had to tell you about these!

now i haven't made very many "mommy mistakes" yet, but i have a feeling that i will be more as i learn about being a parent. here a few bloopers that i've been trying NOT to think about.

night before last TJ asks me if the baby monitor is on as we are settling down for bed. i look across the room and see the glowing green light indicating that the unit is indeed on. so off to sleep we go. i wake up at 7 45 the next morning -out of an undisturbed sound sleep. now what is out of the ordinary about this is that teege is a noisy sleeper. even though it is normal for him to sleep for 12 or 13 hours at a time it is not like him to sleep silently.
i go back to bed and lay there for a few minutes before realization sets in:
as i am staring at the monitor KNOWING that it is impossible for him to have slept without so much as making a peep i remember (DUN DUN DUN!) that he was throwing a fit saturday night and TJ and i had been taking shifts with him. when it was my turn to take over again i turned the volume all the way down on the monitor so TJ could get some Z's. i usually turn it all the way off if i mess with it at all. instead i just turned it down. i still don't know if he woke up and cried until he just fell back asleep, or if he really did sleep good enough that no one heard him. i assume if he got too upset wouldnt' the dogs have woken us up?

i was driving home from my sister's once and came to a red light that had railroad tracks paired with it(2 sets of them). i can see the tracks. i can see 1 car at the light already. i think to myself, oh those tracks are farther away from the light than they look i can fit between that car and the first set of tracks. i cross over the first set of tracks and then as i am slowing to a stop i see that there indeed is not enough room for a 2nd car before the other set of tracks.
"OH CRAP!" i say out loud. i oonche as close to the car in front of me as i can. i can see there are no trains coming but still, it is the idea that terrifies me! my back tires were still sitting on the tracks! not much, but enough! "OH GOD! PLEASE DON'T LET A TRAIN COME! OH GOD PLEASE DON'T LET A TRAIN COME! OHCRAPOHCRAPOHCRPA!"
i'm praying out loud as my baby is sleeping in the back seat peacefully. my head is wipping from right to left and back again! just as i open my mouth and shout "RED TEAM GO! RED TEAM GO!" my light turns green and i speed away from the railroad tracks as fast as i can. i will never underestemate the space between a traffic light and a set of train tracks again. that was horrabily terrifying! i could have thrown the car in reverse and manuvered around to the right of the car in front of my and turned right on to the highway, but i was afraid i might get stuck on the tracks altogether(though that probably only happens in the movies) i will NEVER do that again.

those are the 2 biggest. the others have been smaller and more common among new moms.
i gave teege a bath at grammy's one night. i didn't take his infanyt tub b/c it was too big to travel with, so i laid him in the tub with just a tiny bit of water.(this is actually his favorite way for bath time, he can splash more!) anyway, i lift him up and lay his belly across my arm so i can scrubb is butt and back. when i flip him back over his face is all wet! i must have dipped his face in the water at some point! he wasn't sputtering or anything so it must have been for just a secone but still........

i snipped the tip of his finger with the finger nail clippers once. he was barely 2 weeks old. it bled.

i'm sure there are a few more, but i can't think of them right now. i will add them as they surface.

i'm sure glad i'm only human

Friday, April 11, 2008

a miserly mom tip:

so i ran out of hersheys choc. syrup yesterday. this is usually not a big deal b/c we've kind of outlawed ice cream around here. trying to cut back on excess sugar to help boost the weightloss around here.

anyway, TJ broght home some vanilla ice cream the other day as a treat - just enough for both of us. he likes to sprinkle nesquick on his, i like choc. syrup on mine. we were out of both. i drank the last of the quick in my milk when i needed a snack the other afternoon...... i can't eat plan ice cream - i like something on it.

so i took out my "miserly mom's" book b/c i remembered seeing recepies in the back - one of which was for chocolate syrup. i made it up. it was oh so easy and tasted just like hersheys. here's the kicker though: it tasted like the hershey's out of the can - you know, the kind you can't hardly find anymore b/c the plastic bottle with the lid that closes has taken over the can that you have topunch a hole in the top!

here's the recepie:

1 cup cocoa powder(unsweetened) i used nestle brand.
2 cups of sugar
1/4 tsp salt
1 cup cold water
1 TBSP vanilla extract

blend sugar and cocoa together til all lumps are smooth.
add water and salt.
heat to boiling. remove from heat. let cool before adding vanilla, otherwise the flavor cooks away.

warning! this recepie is quite a bit thinner than the original guys!

tip: i added a TBSP of cornstarch to thicken. sauce also thickens some as it cools, but the cornstarch helped.

it is yummy yummy!!

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

growing up