ramblings

there is so much to do! before TJ leaves on saturday. it's making me crazy. we have not had one single lazy day since he came home so far. and it makes me angry.

we need to get all the christmas decorations down and put in the attic. if i weren't pregnant i'd manage it myself. but it's just not safe to carry boxes up and down a ladder right now!

the crib needs to be put together.
we bought a crib last night. and the mattress. it cost us a whopping 508.00! ouch! the crib was 330.00 and the mattress was like 140.00. the cheaper cribs all had the drop down side-which is not very safe. and they didn't come in black. the sales woman nearly threw a fit at us when she discovered that not only did they not have any of our first choice in stock, but the other 3 we liked were also the most popular on the floor. but they had one left of my second choice. the last 2 choices were espresso finish -which was very pretty- and that was close enough to black i wouldn't have really cared if i had had to pick one of those.they were cheaper too.
but i'm glad they had the black one. it made me happy.
if we don't get it put together now well, i won't have a room for the new baby when she arrives. TJ's not due home til april 28th. i'm due may 7th, and i doubt this baby cooks for her entire time either, just like teege didn't. and i refuse to be trying to ready a room for the baby after she is here. it would be too much!

we need to put the safety clips on teege's dresser. his room is completely child proof (so that he can play in there without having to hear the word no a single time!) aside from the dresser drawers. the drawers slid out at the slightest pull and they slide closed very easily and he'll either sit there and empty the whole dresser or slam his fingers in the drawers. right now they are tied shut with bungee cords. it's working. but none of his clothes get put away b /c it's a pain to undo the cords. if i didn't have to wield a screw driver or a drill i'd do it myself. but why should i when my husband can? i just have to remind him -again!

we also need to move the computer out of the room we're using for the nursery and set it up in our bedroom. another task i won't be able to manage b/c i don't know the first think about setting up an entire computer system! let alone all the extra fancy gadgets TJ has plugged in.

it's not that much really. til you see how much crap we have!
and teege is so worn out from christmas he's doing all kinds of things he's not supposed to and throwing these tantrums! he's never thrown a fit before! this is day 3 of him throwing these horrible fits when i take something away or put him down for a nap or even lay him down to change his diaper.oh and this morning, he dipped the tv remote in the cat's water bowl. i just couldn't' get there fast enough! we have one of those fancy expensive logitech universal digital remotes. the ones that plug in to your computer and you can program it to do all kinds of crazy stuff besides work all of your tv components like turn the lights off/on or open/close the garage. yeah. it doesn't work now.he dipped the usb end in the water. i guess i could turn all the components off at the system. but then we'd have to reprogram the whole remote. which we may have to do anyway.
teege is just being so rotten and i don't know if i'll ever get thru it! where did my sweet little boy go? he's just exhausted and i feel so bad for him. but every day there's been somewhere else we need to go or something we needed to do and i'm so tired i just feel sick!

anyway, i guess i'll go and try and do something constructive. like feed the dogs and undecorate the christmas tree. i could atleast get something on the list started. while TJ is off running around with his old buddies from work.
he left at 6 30 this morning to run 5 miles with his old boss. then he went to his old office to see someone else. it's 11 am now. and he's still not back.

i sure hope he feels like he didn't get to see much of us when he leaves.

did you know he wants me drive 6 hrs up to OK to stay with him for 2 weeks next month?
yeah. a 6 hr trip. with a one year old screaming in the back seat the whole way. it would take me the better part of 8 hrs i'm sure b/c i'd have to stop and feed him at least twice, and he's gunna get tired of his car seat, and don't get me started on how many trips i have to make to the bathroom lately! natalie sits very low and squishes my bladder and i'm running to the bathroom like every 30 minutes!
i really don't want to do it. he said he might be able to get special permission to come and get us, and to bring us back. but only if those weekends are times when there's no extensive training or testing the following monday. so i guess he doesn't want us to come up that bad. i just don't see how it would work. not easily anyway. and i'm sorry. as much as i love him i just don't think that he should expect that much out of me right now. if teege was a little older i'd do it in a heartbeat.

anyway, teege is supposed to be napping and he's in there still throwing a fit so i guess i better go tend to that mess.

hope you all had a merry christmas. our was terribly busy like always. next year is going to be different. i want to spend christmas at home with me kids. not rushing from my father in laws to my gramas to my moms all in one day. it was too much. TJ will be deployed and i'll have 2 kiddo's to lug around and keep happy. it was hard enough this year with TJ there to help with teege.
i'll have to do something like visit on days leading up to christmas or something like that. or not go to see my grama who has no business having christmas at her house christmas morning anymore anyway.
it was a huge mess! and i didn't get to enjoy it at all. by the end of the day i just wanted to cry b/c christmas was over and i was grumpy and hadn't had a bit of fun.